Girls Can Be Bitches

Every single day, I am fascinated at the rumors that travel the halls in BHS. Some of them, in fact most of them, are ridiculously untrue. The majority of the time, if it's about a girl, which most of them are, another girl started it. It's usually started with one girl confiding something secret in another, who then goes to tell her bff, but switches some of the facts. Then, that girl tells her bff and also switches some of the facts, or she doesn't remember them, so she just makes them up. Regardless, this "secret" becomes BHS's newest rumor and gossip. Since we have a small school, it takes no time at all before everyone knows, even if it's not the truth. Now, think about how the girl who the rumor is about feels. Do you think she feels good? No. So, the real question is: why are people so concerned with everyone else's business?

Honestly, don't feel bad if you can't figure it out, because I can't either. Girls are bitches. Whether it's because of hormones or not, every girl has the ability to let her inner bitch come out. Some just let it out more than others.

Sometimes I wish I was the girl who was better at standing up for herself when others are tearing her down, but I'm not. I wish I had the courage to say something to the bitch who started the rumor or said the mean comment's face, but I don't. I wish I had the strength to know that regardless of what someone else says, I know who I am, what I believe in, and what I can do, but I don't. I'm the girl that sits back and takes the criticism because I'm afraid of making people angry. I embrace their comments and slurs, often without a comeback.

It makes me so angry to think about how people go around tearing everyone down. It actually makes me sick, especially when I'm the person being terrorized by people who don't know a thing about me. Then I remember that there's a Taylor Swift song for everything and these are my two favorite song lyrics of hers: "And you'll say: 'Don't you worry your pretty little mind; people throw rocks at things that shine. And life makes love look hard; the stakes are high, the water's rough, but this love is ours'" and "You can take me down with just one single blow, but you don't know, what you don't know: someday, I'll be living in a big ol' city, and all you're ever gonna be is mean. Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me, and all you're ever gonna be is mean." These two quotes get me through almost every day.

I'm not usually the girl to post about her problems, but I just needed to vent. I needed to get this off my chest before the frustration builds up inside me.

I'm pretty good at plastering a smile on my face everyday, aren't I? That's what happens when you've been doing it for years. I bet you never guessed..